a long long long post

ok.. it's been so so so long since anyone blogged here!! i even wonder if this post will be read by anyone!! i shall be the first to blog after such a long long long time!! =)
haha.. its been almost half an hour since i started typing this post and im only at my fourth sentence! i dun exactly know wad to write.. too much to say.. and i can find myself typing, deleting and typing over and over again. oh wells..


to tell the truth.. its been a long time since vball comes to my mind. it was watching canoeing that brought back lots and lots of memories!! haha.. the way they row so hard and yet lost.. the way the rest of the team cheered.. so hard and loud at the finishing line.. encouraging those tired in the muscles to row on.. so many many similar things that ive experienced with the raffles volleyball team!


still remember the morning of the first day of school.. when i first met sarah at the bus stop.. where she and yvonne encouraged me to join vball or at least the training on tt day. yes.. i did go in the end. nobody could have guessed how extra i felt i was!! everywhere on the court.. there were players wearing the raffles shirt.. some were rj's pe shirt.. some were rg's.. but to me.. they were all the same.. they were rafflesians and i was not.
was introduced to everyone.. and kaiting left me the biggest impression. haha.. =)
was introduced to edwin as well. still remember the way he carried his red bottle to the poles.. sat himself down and gave the black face which frightened me so much! and before this meeting.. ive heard things bout his scary pt! i was really scared.. really!
was told of the possibility that i may not get into the team as i joined too late and the team was more or less formed already. felt the whole world crashing down on me.. but lucky for me.. han was there to keep me going.. and i did manage to get in in the end.
got to know mr teo.. our dear coach who's forever patient with us. i was quite taken aback by the friendliness of mr teo and his trainings.. the trainers that i was under previously were so harsh! i din really know how to behave during trainings in rj then.. awkward was the word to use. the people as well as the surroundings there.. nuthing was familiar.
but everyone welcomed me.. gave me lots and lots of assurance that they are nice people and i'll find no problem getting to know them. they asked me out for dinner after trainings.. asked me out for team outings.. stopped and talked to me when they met me in school.. everything! they made me their family member.
soon.. i was comfortable with most of them.. all except uni. i was so scared of her at first!! she was co cold. haha.. but we got closer after promos.. all cos of marvin and his training.
speaking of which.. it was during this period that i did sumthing so wrong to yuqing and yet so forgave me without saying anything. wad she did realli made me realise she had accepted me as her 'new' team member. was so glad yet guilty..
den it was during one of the team talks this year that i cried at the specs gal. finally said wad was in my heart after such a long long time.. finally told them how i really felt as a new member to the team - extra and afraid tt anything i do will destroy the team tt existed before i came in messed up everything. and den.. everyone assured me again and again.. sending me smses and putting a hand over my shoulder.. comforting me as i cried.
den it was the trainings before season and the season itself.. thru which the team realli fostered strong bonds. the period when three quarter of my awake time was spent on vball and vballers. the period when i enjoyed vball in rj most! =)
so many more things are coming into my mind as i type.. but there's no way i can put everything in.. the sentosa times.. the cca camp.. marvin's hell trainings.. edwin's encouragement and team talks.. the 'do you believe in miracles' video.. a lot a lot more that made up my vball life.. things tt i refuse to let go.. things tt will still stay with me even if i dun think of them..


ok.. i know it's already a long long post.. but i still wanna talk bout everyone!! hehe =) bear with me please..

my dear captain.. kaiting. im so sorry that ive not been of much help for you when it comes to team matters! to tell the truth.. i think u're realli a good good captain.. and i can never be one like you. realli... =) setting was already hard for u.. and yet you still encouraged me when my spiking sucks like hell.. and praised me when i did get it back. a pillar of strength... that's all i can say. and of course ur lame jokes!!! you're the one who is capable of knowing how im feeling and leave me alone when im not feeling good. you're the reason i first felt accepted.

the one always making me worried.. uni. like ive said.. we werent close till end of last year.. and since then.. you've been a great fellow 4 hao and fren to me! whenever i feel like slacking.. seeing how hard u are trying to improve made me realise i was wrong to do so. and all those covering you did for me on court. the smses you sent me whenever i went crazy and was pmsing brought me lots of warmth! and of course all the teasings!! hehe.. and now.. we can go shopping together.. study together.. talk for a long time in macs just eating an ice-cream cone.....

the one always nagging me.. yvonne. you're one special person.. different from all the rest in the team. the joy and comfort that i enjoy in your presence is never the same with anyone else. tho we hardly talk in msn or in school.. i wont feel awkward shopping with you.. but instead can be myself and tell you my secrets.. =) and you're always keeping me going on when im having a hard time. you always let me see things in a different light and stop me from doing things impulsively. i know exactly who to go to when i have you...

the second nagger in the team.. sarah. and of course.. not forgetting tt you're cute too! you are always stopping me from doing everything when i sprained my ankle.. and when im sick.. you'll always scold me for drinking or eating stuff that i should not be. the times when i cried.. you'll always be the first one to message me.. hoping that i'll feel better soon. tho i never ever replied those smses.. i am really thankful for a teammate and fren like you! the things you say nurse my heart. and of course your encouragement too.. you make me fight on.

the biggest chiobu in the team.. yuqing. among all of them.. you're the one who makes me feel ashamed when i see you.. just because you're too nice to me even when i did you wrong. ur smile.. can just make me melt! there were times when you gave me advice which enabled me to sort out my messed up feelings.. times when you 'switched me on' on court.. times when you tried to cheer me up. you gave me the green teethless hairband tt im still using now when i felt so so down. you walked me right up to my doorstep when i sprained my ankle. you did so many many things tt i feel my heart's been touched by an angel..

the one from whom i can feel the most determination in.. yvette. you've never stop trying even when things become real bad for you.. and its cos of this tt i learnt how to hang on a little longer when things go wrong for me. you are also one of those who smsed me when i am down and when i cried.. assuring me how things will go the right way. you are also the one who kept me continually moving on the court.. striving to cover more areas.. daring to dive everywhere just to get the ball up..

the big monster.. joyce. you're always trying to improve yourself when it comes to skills.. and hence.. you're my source of inspiration! i know when to work hard when i see you. you're really capable.. reaching such a standard with just one year of training.. im really damn impressed by you. still remember the words that u said to encourage me during a particular team talk.. they struck me and made me realise things ive yet understood. you're my illuminator...

for the rest of the team.. suyin janelle bojing weiwei peiyi lingmin linglee.. tho we hardly got to interact this year.. i'll have to say tt i admire the courage tt u all had to take up this new challenging sport. and the determination you all had to better youselves.. staying back after trainings to gang1 with the wall. i really enjoyed the trainings we had together..


wanted to write sumthing for the guys initially.. but im now tired! haha.. maybe leave it for some other day~~ but well.. i have to say that im thankful for getting to know you guys! you guys really brought even more laughter and joy to trainings as well as my everyday life! and of course.. the starting of the 'off' club by you guys and i end up being the chairwoman in the end! =P

jose jiawei clinton eugene leslie.. who are always encouraging me! assuring me tt im doing very well and were all there for me during the season! messaging me after the vj match when i felt really down and was about to give up. with the 5 of you.. im comfortable.

for the rest.. changtat. ben chia. jon ng. titus. richmond. calvin. le tian. jass (hope i din miss anyone out).. im glad the team had you all to liven up everything! nuthing will be quite the same without all of u....

i love volleyball.. i love the team.. =)

heys everyone!
i'm a bit lagging.. just read uni's long post. just want to say some things.. the part about playing for mr teo, edwin and marvin. mr teo hasn't had a long relationship with this team. this is only his second year and it's not even full yr only pre-season times he's here. and he has made so many accomodations for us! like staying longer to train us cos we're 'guai and hardworking' :) remember our dunman friendly in school? that idiot mr lim came and was so siao1 zhang1. when mr teo tried to ask him smth mr teo had to reply it like three times before he replied him. and on top of that their whole team was like almost 2 hours late?. mr teo is a good coach and the other coaches probably dont respect him cos he hasnt produced a winning team. so other than playing well for ourselves, we have to fight for him too. dont let all the extra hours he has put in for us go to waste. and he's such a caring coach too, driving ailin all the way to find the good sinseh.
i know i sound as if i have a crush on him. haha i dont k!. just that i'm really grateful that we have him for a coach.

alright for the girls team, we won pioneer today and so that's a good start to our season. but there's a long way to go. we made so many mistakes today.. our defence, setting and spiking can use so much more improvement. teams with tighter covering and better defence will not go down like pioneer k.. i hope no one gets complacent. and remember what pamela saw today? dont like them pull the score tighter k.. today during the second set there was twice when we had at least 5 point lead and we couldnt maintain it. at 7-1 and 17-12. train hard on wed k. next target is hwachong and their cocky asses.

for the guys team i just want to say dont be disheartened k.. we saw so much improvement in yall.. so just concentrate on beating cj :) you can do it! :)

ok thats all from me for now.. as what edwin says, find your hunger to win! and immerse yourself into the game cos thats when you'll play best :)

rest well everyone :)

psyche up pple!! the day is nearing.
we'll show everyone else that we're not a buncha dumbbells who only know how to study.
all the work and effort we've put in is for now.
and you pple are the best i've ever known. both guys and girls. =]
mm i blogged on my blog so shall not repeat everything here. go see there.

ACE STEADY ACE!!!

the only one who can tell you you can't is you. and you dont have to listen.

our big day is near

oh mans.. i carn believe our season starts in just three days..
the day we have been preparing hard for..
we sweated we bleeded
we cried we smiled
we got angry we got pissed
we got scolded we got praised
just to wait for the moment we will step onto the court and face our opponents
.. for the moment we win....
oh wells.. everyone's worried now.. worried bout the unknown.. worried bout the way we will play on that day itself.. but worrying is fine.. just make sure it wun turn to fear.. =] jiayoo everyone!!
no point thinking bout how good the opponents are.. like wad jiawei says.. the true opponent is often actually ourselves.. and there's nuthing we cannot achieve if we do believe hard enough.. the ball is round.. even the best players in the world will make mistakes and have times they are off.. and.. they are only as good a player as yoo think they are.. if yoo think they are good.. they probably are.. and subconciously.. yoo've lost..
just some things i've learnt from the vcds i rewatched today..

“ 不要轻言放弃，否则对不起自己。”

“ 一旦你们站上球场，你就是自己的主人，尽情发挥！”

“ 球场就像战场，一旦站上去，光拼命是不够的，最重要是把自己的能力发挥得百分之百。”

oh no.. i realise typing in chinese is veri troublesome.. so i shall stop.. hehe.. =] and here's some i remember from the video ' Do you believe in miracles'.. hehe.. all directly quoted from the video.. i am sure yoo all will be smart enough to understand how they can be applied to our own team.. =]

"we were born to be a player, we were meant to be here. This moment was ours."

"This is our time! It's not their time! It's our turn!"

"Stay with your game. Play your game."

"I thought the period had ended.... but he hasn't stop playing, he was still playing, the Russians had stopped."

"Before the third period, the 20 American kids who came together as strangers 7 months earlier with a dream to win any medal decided to use their last 20 mins as e team to take the gold, by force."

"If yoo lose this game, yoo will take it to yoor f***ing grave!"

"This will be the lat time they will be together as a team."

oh dears.. cannot rem more lers.. hehe.. and this is quite a long post.. =]
just hope that everyone of yoo will take this weekend to have a good rest and prepare yoorself for tuesday!! sleep enough and visualise!! psyche up!!

The beauty of a three letter word

Season is coming... and if u r wonderin how to cope with it? just remember to have SEX...

Study hard so u don have to catch up after season...
Sleep well so u can rest and train again the next day
Exercise -> this basically means u train with desire... "the only difference between dreams and accomplishments is purely desire" -Fandhi Ahmad

And if SEX fails you... then remember there is always another three-letter word OLE.
(or in the girls' case ace)

OLE-spicium melioris aevi...

p.s. ok i admit... i made that up.. fandhi never said that.. that quote was from TV wrestling

haha eugene you're off. really.
anyway goodluck everyone for commontests tmr.
my paper starts first.
sighhh.

two roads diverged in a wood and i
i took the one less travelled by
and that has made all the difference.

haha. ok well, THATS ALL I CAN REMEMBER.
oh no i'm so dead for lit tmr.
arghhs.